Tobie here: I can’t believe it’s Mother’s Day. I have so many emotions this last week….it could be the lack of sleep. I am soooooo happy the babies are home! I truly believe they are happy too. I can’t describe how it feels to wake up and see their gorgeous faces and go to bed knowing they are right in the next room. I can’t walk by their room without looking in. Eric says I’ve been crazy this last week (in a bad way) when it comes to the babies…but can anyone blame me? I had spent 5 months in the hospital, except for the 5 days I was ill, waiting and praying for the day they came home. So yeah, I’m crazy…I don’t care.
So….just a quick summary of a typical day. Wake up at 3ish…feed babies that are completely asleep. They may cry to give you false hope that the feeding will go well…but that feed takes a long time. The good news is that they sleep really well at night which will come in handy when they don’t eat every 3 hours. So by the time that feeding is over it’s now around 4:30. Go back for a quick catnap for approx an hour before next feed. Feed around 6ish. Notice that Paige is extremely awake. This is her prime time between 5 and 6am. After the feedings I try to get some cuddle time in with her since she is so snuggly. Time is around 8am. Cole’s prime time to party. The NICU nurses were right…he is so awake at 8am. Time to play with Cole. Put Paige in the swing while Cole has tummy time. Cole’s done…switch places. Paige cries the entire time in the swing…Cole is so funny when it’s his turn. He looks around and I swear he’s contemplating something serious….war in Iraq, Chinese nuclear arms…?? Next feeding. Put them down for a quick nap while laundry is being done and bottles washed and the day’s worth of feedings prepared. Next feeding. And the day continues until around 9pm when I crash and Eric covers the night feed around midnight.
Another thing that I know could happen that I never thought would happen…I’ve been thinking of Kaylee a lot this week. I think about her every day, no joke…but this last week I should only be on a cloud and every couple of hours I start to almost cry when I think she should have been here enjoying this with us. I think the lack of sleep has me very over-emotional…but having the babies home and finally feeling like a real parent has brought up grief I thought I had pushed back.
Wow…didn’t want to depress…..did I mention how ecstatic I am to have the babies home??!! The love I feel for them is overwhelming!! I could be the happiest mother on Mother’s Day! Speaking of mothers…I have to say that mine is great. I was feeling very overloaded this last week and she came by to help out and is coming for a couple of hours each day this coming week. She is a great friend and a wonderful mom….thanks Mom!!
Happy Mother’s Day to all you moms out there! Glad to be part of the club!!!
Tobie
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Happy Mother’s Day! What a wonderful day! Glad to hear that you have survived the first week. I know how excited you must be, bit I do remember the huge adjustment period…and the lack of sleep doesn’t help. I promise it will get easier! When you go to 4 hr feeds it will help, then the babies will become pros at feeding! When they get to that point you will be able to feed 2 babies at once and you will be able to have a feeding down within 1/2 hour. Thanks for sharing your story. I’m so happy for all of you!
Angel (from TC)
But when in your schedule do you nurse Eric’s toe?
Love hearing your descriptions of how things are going - love you guys! xoxo
Val,
Maybe sometime next week?
I’m so happy for you all! I TOTALLY understand how happy you must be to have them home, and yet I also understand how there is somehow something missing and the family isn’t 100% complete. It’s nice that you’re able to recognize where the feelings are coming from, and on this day (or yesterday) of all days - to celebrate being a mother to 3! (No, I’m not talking about Eric!)
It sounds like you’ve got quite the schedule… (I smile as I think how similar it is!) Although our girls have been offered 4-hr blocks at night (reducing the number of feeds to 7) - there still doesn’t seem to be any more sleeping going on for us parents!
Just different sorts of shifts.
Yay - Happy Mother’s Day (late)! I didn’t want to call you to say Happy First Mother’s Day because I figured you were either feeding them or trying to nap, or they were napping - which I wouldn’t want to wake anyone.
It’s crazy to think that you and Eric came to visit us around this time last year and you weren’t even pregnant yet! Crazy how much has changed.
I can’t wait to meet them next week finally!
Hi Tobie,<br/><br/>Blessings to you on your first Mother’s Day. How precious your little Angels are…and speaking of…..Kaylee is right there with you, she is your “Angel”! Her presence is the emotion that you are feeling, and she wants you to know she loves you as well. She will always be there watching over all of you! The pain is always there and it creeps up from time to time, but you just find a place in your heart for it to rest! God is with Kaylee and the
family! Embrace your life, it only gets crazier as they get older, but you’ll never carry more love in your heart!<br/><br/>With Love,<br/>Lorrie Sweet
Happy Belated Mother’s Day!